literally all i want is to fall asleep on someone
i’m very tired and i want to lay my head on someone’s stomach and have them run their fingers through my hair and sleep
remember like 2 years ago when christmas stopped feeling like christmas for some reason
I’ve been taking my medicine, my dreams havent been too messed up lately, but i’m having more bad days. It’s getting harder to concentrate at night. I’m getting sucked into my thoughts. Am I over working myself with work and a 15 credit semester? Is it wrong to think that the people that love me are holding me down? Or are they helping me live rather than just survive? With the way I’m feeling right now, I feel that thinking all the things I do, are wrong because if any of it did happen they’d be heartbroken. What is wrong with me? Why can’t I just be normal? Why do I have to consistently feel like this all the time? Why didn’t I just go through with it all when I had the chance, when I wasn’t close to people because now I can’t take it. The worst part is, I’ve come so far why do I want to give up now?